Embracing The Fullness Of Life

037_1 (2)     You know, it is strange how so many good things and so many bad things seem to happen together. Just last month, my family was celebrating the wedding of my daughter, Rachael. One month later, I joined with the rest of our nation and grieved over the brokenness of so many, as displayed in the Boston Marathon bombing.  A few days later tragedy has struck in Texas. 

       As I get ready to help co-facilitate a grief seminar, in Saint Croix, I’ve thought about my first set of losses. My parents didn’t know until two years after I was born that I had cerebral palsy.  Since they immediately began to make sure I received the best treatment possible, I have a very full life.  Just as my struggle to learn to walk as a small child, gave me freedom and independence, I have discovered when I let myself grieve over both the major losses and those that seem insignificant the more I can embrace the wonderful life I’ve been given.


Unexpected Blessings

At times all the circumstances I’ve faced have seemed as immovable as the mountains on the calendar.  Sometimes it’s difficult remember the words of David, “Call out to God, My help comes from Him. “

 It’s these times of struggle that have produced the fruit (or flowers) in my life.

 Inconvenient opportunities for growth happen regularly. One of them happened last week.   I needed to go to Salem so I could testify at the capital.  So I made arrangements with a friend to take me to Salem but she got sick the night before.  I spent that night and all the next morning trying to find a ride. 

 I actually made it to Salem about two minutes before my appointment!

 Not being able to drive or to get where I need to go is one of my pet peeves about having cerebral palsy.  Yet God uses these circumstances to help me see how faithful He is.  Even when my plans don’t work He always uses it for my good. 

           Several years ago, a friend of mine co-facilitated a grief retreat. In the middle of leading the group I started to see myself from a different prospective.  I knew God wanted me be open about my losses so He could bring me into deeper healing and freedom. 

            After my friend moved away several years ago she has wanted me to visit for ages. But because of mobility issues it seemed too complicated if not unlikely.

           When she visited here last month, she asked, “Will you come and help me teach a class next month?”  I was getting ready for my daughter’s wedding so I told her I couldn’t even think about it until after that was over. “Well” she said, “Tickets are cheaper right now and several of our friends are coming over to the island, why don’t you come with them?”

            My friend and care provider chimed in, “Let’s go!”

            The next thing I knew, I had my ticket!

 Ps.18:19   “He brought me forth also into a broad place.   He rescued me, because He delighted in me. “