Walking through the fog

Proverbs 3:5-6   Don’t rely on our own  understanding rather draw near to God and  He will direct our path.lylasblog

 There are times when we ask God for direction and see His plans pretty quickly, other times it seems like it takes forever.  2015 was one of those kinds of years.   

     On a stormy January morning my daughter helped me board a flight to go see my family.  The grey clouds of the day before were there to meet us and snowflakes began to fall.  I was surprised to see blue skies after plane climbed to a higher altitude.  But after a while we were enveloped in grey again. In a way I felt like that during the past year I struggled with a lot of indecision that made think the greyness surrounding the plane.  

     As a woman with cerebral palsy, I was able to raise my daughter Racheal, with the help of my caregiver.  A couple years later a friend of mine needed a place to live so she became my live in caregiver.   In many ways she made my life easier so about a year later when she told me she was going to move and I needed to make plans.

     For no reason in particular I felt stuck.  I couldn’t figure out what to do. Many of my friends thought I should find another caregiver because they were concerned about my safety and in many ways it was easier to have someone there.  I didn’t realize that I was at a stale-mate with myself. I know at some point I’ll probably need more help than I need now but friends were telling me I needed it NOW. I really didn’t think I was that point yet but I didn’t want to be irresponsible.  I had a friend who was praying about moving in and as I waited to see what she was going to do, I carefully moved ahead. I asked another caregiver to spend the night a few nights a week to see how she would work out.  I decided not to continue having her stay because that didn’t seem very helpful.

 At the same time Colleen, who has been my caregiver for many years, wanted to work fewer hours.  After I hired a second woman, life started to stabilize.  I felt the cloud of indecision lift, and I knew what to do.  I decided to continue living alone.  

 When I need more help I’m sure the Lord will give me direction.  I value feedback from others and I do ponder it, but it’s critical that I listen to what God is telling me through my heart. His way is always the best way for me!

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4 thoughts on “Walking through the fog

  1. This is such a good description of God directing a path when we draw near to Him. (Don’t need an angel or a bright light! 😉)

  2. Ponder. Such an apt word for revealing direction. You have been given wisdom and knowledge and the ability to choose appropriately, in your various life seasons. You are an astute daughter of I Am. You have caregivers, of sorts, with you, at all times: Psalm 91:11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.

  3. This is nicely written. Thank you for sharing your path with us. It just occurred to me that your post might be welcome in a book on caregivers I’ve been invited to contribute to. Would you like to consider it? Your perspective would be so valuable, I’m sure. I can’t find a way to contact you on your blog, so why don’t you get a hold of me on my site’s contact page, if you’re interested. I’m at KathySheldonDavis.com.

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